(Before i jump into any topic, i want to wish you all the best for for this new year and I hope you find what you were looking for and be happy!)

This one is specially dedicated to the girl i love..

I was confused sometime ago, all of this inside me... i had felt love before but this was totally new to me.. but i know that this is what i want.. to be confused.. with you..

I can stop thinking about you, I dream about you.. i wish I could be with you every second and.. nothing or no one can compare to what I feel..

"I love everything about her, and I'm not a guy who says that lightly, I'm a guy who has faked love his entire life, I'm a guy who thought love was just something idiots felt, but this woman has a hold on my heart that I could not break if I wanted to. And there have been times when I wanted to. It has been overwhelming and humbling, and even painful at times, but I could not stop loving her any more than I could stop breathing. I’m hopelessly, irretrievably in love with her. More than she knows."

This quote explains exactly how i feel.. I only said "I love you" once, but I'm saying it again.. I love you B.. and even though you dont read this or.. dont know of this.. i feel like i should say it :)

I love you.. 3 words that are so hard to say for soo many reasons :S You dont know you love her, she is with someone already, you are scared of getting hurt.. Its complicated. Thats why its love, it would be the same if it was easy.

I want to be with the one I love, but i cant. Why?

cuz i dont know if i love her? I do.

cuz Im scared? Im not!

cuz she already has her somebody? yea, and i dont want to be the one ruining that...

Love means sacrifice. I love her. Somehow its doesnt feel good at all..  :(

How can one step away from you ever be anything for me but a step in the wrong direction?

Love starts when u feel a little bit warm in your tummy and it keeps growing.. well we talked about this..

I got this problem.. i cant kiss or say "I love you" honetly to a girl without really loving her.

I know I love her when i feel i can say it, without thinking too much about it but yet.. thinking a little bit with my heart ^^the last phase of trully loving a person changes from one to another, mine is this, maybe yours is another one completly different

But believe me you'll know it when u are there

I learn a lot this year and its only at half.. I'm growing and yet I love to stay the same inside ^^

(Today I'm gonna write in portuguese cuz i just cant think right to write in english, i'll translate it later)

Eu queixava me de nao puder amar outra vez.. mas agr eu consigo ver que tive de novo essa chance e é fantastico viver isto e por incrivel que pareca agora tudo o que eu quero fazer e dizer lhe isso.. que a amo.. que voltei a sentir akele aperto no estomago.. as lagrimas a cair pela cara abaixo.. por alguem.. por ela.. fogo..

Doi tanto e ao mesmo tempo sabe tao bem sentir este fogo por alguem.. pela primeira vez nao quero saber se o que escrevo faz sentido

apenas quero escrever.. gritar, correr, fechar os olhos e abracala na minha mente..

mas tudo o que posso fazer e sentir e imaginar.. tenho de aceitar o facto que e algo que nao posso ter.. ela ama-o e eu quero que ela seja feliz.. por isso se tiver de viver afastado por resto da vida dela.. que seja

tudo o que eu lhe vou pedir e que ela seja feliz..

E se estas a ler isto.. se estas a ouvir as palavras que o meu coracao chora.. eu amo-te.. nao preciso de dizer quanto.. isto apenas chega.. se feliz..

You know when you know you love a person and turns out she feels the same about another guy? yea shit happens.. but if you truly love her you should let her be happy and dont tell shit about your feelings because she would (obviosly) be sad about you.

Love doesnt always means you gotta fight until you get her, nope..

Love most of the time means: let go

And the let the person you love be happy, with or without you.. A piece of advice: Dont ever get sad about that cuz in the end you made what you wanted to make.. that is letting the person you love be happy and... believe that is the most important thing ever.. no matter what it costs you to let go.. :)

Why couldn't I see this at the beginning? well i thought i saw it but i was too busy crying about things that would solve themselves later.. I was a fool in not seeing the brilliance of such a soul right before my eyes.. but now its not too late to make her feel awesome.. even without me.. just by letting her love her boyfriend and just by me being quiet about it ^^ thats love.. and I'm glad I had a second chance to feel it at last.. :)

I'm still gonna be posting here I dont think it will be bout love but still an opinion its an opinion ^^

Peace out, be happy fools :)

So I know I haven't really write a lot.. exams and well people were taking up my time, but I'll return now.

I'm feling good today, there are people making my day nice just by saying: hello

well.. there is one in particular :p you know when you clear your mind and suddenly you have no doubts about nothing? thats exactly how i was a few months ago but now my doubts just came again and I dont really now why, maybe cuz of the pressure, maybe cuz now I really have not much of a BIG worry to deal with and now see things more clearly, or maybe I'm ready to move on? yea its about a girl this time

I thought i had this topic buried but suddenly i dont know anymore.. They say writing helps so here I am.. waiting for my epiphany i guess.. ^^

So today's topic is people.. where are the people that you met in your childhood? what are the people you saw in the way to primary school (totally random people) doing now?

I believe there's a connection to all of it, a smile, a greeting, a look... all this small things meant nothing when we were kids mas somehow it it affects us in the present. Not in a bad or good way.. but it simply does.

What if this text right now is gonna influence someone today to do something that will touch a person's life with a big impact and 20 years later.. I'll met that person? totally from the start I'll become a friend or an enemy.. But i already touched her life unconsciously.

What am I supposed to do now? Who am I supposed to met? Does it matter? Should I look for it? No.. The destiny will bring it to me and even though I don't know what I am supposed to do now.. I'll understand when the times comes.. or will I?

Now that i read all this i see its a pretty messed up text and although I'm tired and my brain in going trough a lot.. I still want to save this becausae i think this is the start of something. For me? For you? Who knows..

There are a lot of steps in love.

Knowing the person.

Finding common interests.

Going out and spending quality time with that person.

And basically getting to know and like his or her personality.

The last step it the sparkle. To feel that tickle in your belly.

I want to love, I really do, and even though I felt every step I just cant see the sparkle, what am I doing wrong? I have so much love, so much to give, so much to care, so much "wanting".. but I guess my second chance wont come that easy.. I'll keep on trying until I find it.. but.. will I?